Just a taste of the various mind of someone mid-crisis.
March 4:
From email to Alissa Romanow
i am generally alright alright. applying for jobs for next year. excited to maybe start a writing workshop camp this summer or next or in the fall. just a few kids and a lot of words. in my basement or in a community center. its a hope and a dream but it could be something that i could volunteer to do in schools and stuff. i want to do that. i want to hang out with teenagers and hear their stories and have them get recognized for their stories. create a zine or something....i ended up going to that thing that jon suggested i go to. it was pretty interesting. nothing new but hearing it again was good--that anything CAN be possible. that if your way of thinking about something isnt working, why not think differently? and ultimately, i came up with this plan for a writing camp type thing. which is a motivating thing for me right now. just to think about...play with...etc. but, i am also applying for lots of other jobs. i think i want to stay in philly for another year but yesterday i applied to work at a school in costa rica. i have trust that i will end up where i need to. but its also fun to put a lot of shit out there.
March 11:
From email to Cordelia Jensen
Thinking that I will most definitely be in Philly next year. At least, I dont want to leave. I really want to stay, delve in, create, hang out, be around all my friends, and play here. Imagining journeying somewhere else makes me feel icky. But I did apply to work at a school in Costa Rica...so you never know...I will most likely be here though. And maybe do some working with you guys?! Unless I get a fantabulous job. And I dont know what Karson's status is gonna be...
March 30:
From email to Alex Smith
i think i am doing better here. now that it is sunny, i wonder how i can get a job that leads me outside. i am looking at all these pictures of summer search kids on their summer adventures and getting super itchy. i chose not to go back to the farm and i think that was the right choicee--to give philly a real and honest chance--but argh, to be outside all day! and sleep there too! i will have to build myself a sleeping porch perhaps....your good at building things, wanna build me one?
March 4:
From email to Alissa Romanow
i am generally alright alright. applying for jobs for next year. excited to maybe start a writing workshop camp this summer or next or in the fall. just a few kids and a lot of words. in my basement or in a community center. its a hope and a dream but it could be something that i could volunteer to do in schools and stuff. i want to do that. i want to hang out with teenagers and hear their stories and have them get recognized for their stories. create a zine or something....i ended up going to that thing that jon suggested i go to. it was pretty interesting. nothing new but hearing it again was good--that anything CAN be possible. that if your way of thinking about something isnt working, why not think differently? and ultimately, i came up with this plan for a writing camp type thing. which is a motivating thing for me right now. just to think about...play with...etc. but, i am also applying for lots of other jobs. i think i want to stay in philly for another year but yesterday i applied to work at a school in costa rica. i have trust that i will end up where i need to. but its also fun to put a lot of shit out there.
March 11:
From email to Cordelia Jensen
Thinking that I will most definitely be in Philly next year. At least, I dont want to leave. I really want to stay, delve in, create, hang out, be around all my friends, and play here. Imagining journeying somewhere else makes me feel icky. But I did apply to work at a school in Costa Rica...so you never know...I will most likely be here though. And maybe do some working with you guys?! Unless I get a fantabulous job. And I dont know what Karson's status is gonna be...
March 30:
From email to Alex Smith
i think i am doing better here. now that it is sunny, i wonder how i can get a job that leads me outside. i am looking at all these pictures of summer search kids on their summer adventures and getting super itchy. i chose not to go back to the farm and i think that was the right choicee--to give philly a real and honest chance--but argh, to be outside all day! and sleep there too! i will have to build myself a sleeping porch perhaps....your good at building things, wanna build me one?
i have made rules for myself that are helping. i am not allowed to think about moving anywhere until at least august and probably not really until january. i have to breathe more. read more. check email less. and continue to give things a shot, even if they fail the first time.
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